Guess who’s back, back again…

Well after a long abscence of not posting, I’m finally back. In just about two weeks, I’m gonna be done at De Anza and 3 months after that, I will be out of San Jose for a good while and have my first taste of living by myself. It’s scary because I’m growing up too fast and all this time just flew by. In just about half a year, I’m gonna turn 21. Yowza! Purchasing alcohol, gambling, going to strip clubs, oh man…What’s even more scary is that I will be out of school in a couple years and then I will seriously have to contemplate on what career I am going to choose. I hope I can work hard enough to become a therapist or some sort of researcher. God damn, I don’t want to grow up. I wish I could have another opportunity to re-live my middle/high school experience. There are so many aspects and experiences that I could have changed for the better.

Anyways, going up to Davis to visit my pad made me really think that in about 3 months, I will not be living with my parents. One can say that the possibility of living on your own without any parental authority is thrilling and exciting. But for me, although I do believe living on my own will be great, I will deeply miss living with my parents. I have everything here I could use as my luxury. Going off on my own, I will not be able to live off of that luxury. I will have to take care of myself, learn to cook, laundry, etc etc. Well, I might as well get use to living like a true independent adult. Maybe it will be lots of fun………………….not really.

Well, enough of me being a pessimistic fruitcake, I shall leave you with this..

the Ghost car

Greetings..i haven’t posted up a blog in a while so I guess it’s time for one. Anyways I stumbled upon this pretty cool video

What I cannot figure out is how the hell can the car go through that fence??!! Also for your information, this footage is UNEDITED. SO IT’S ALL REAL. Damn unexplainable phenomenoms…but if it were me, I’d be like fuck this and plow through that fence.

Ipod Touch and the City Lights

I was never into the whole Ipod phase like everyone else. They would all pull out their ipod and indulge into their tunes. I did not want to conform into any of them. But as of now, I have developed some big interests in the Ipod Touch.

I don’t know why I want one. I have lived through almost 7 years without one. I guess it’s because I’m feeling disinterested in life right now and that would spark my interests to get some interesting gadgets such as this.

On another note, I hope that one day I could take a picture from atop of a building and capture the essence of the city lights in major cities such as NY, Tokyo, Hong Kong, etc…

Something like this…

I don’t know about anyone else but when I look at pictures of lights, I feel so breathtaken that I’m soaring through the sky at a high speed without a care in the world. It just makes me want to live my life to the fullest, daring myself to do some unbelievable shit.

Frank Sinatra and the club scene

Frank Sinatra…. I wish I had his voice. This is the type of guy who knows how to get the ladies. RIP forever Frank!

I miss the days where the jazzy ritzy classy club scene was popular. It was mandatory to dress up in FORMAL attire and you could just boogey down and swing.  Now the popular clubs are the hip hop ones where people dress all urban-like and grind up on one another. What douchebags. If I had the choice between going to a club dressed in formal attire or one where you could wear whatever you want, I’d choose the formal one.

I will never get tired of this

I WISH I HAD 2000 FEET. SO I COULD SHOVE 500 OF THEM IN EACH OF YOUR ASSES!

Unexplainable hallucination

I have realized that whenever I am physically or mentally sick, I have dreams (actually nightmares) about feeling trapped…literally. I would wake up with cold sweat trying to contemplate what my dream was about. Just this week, I had one of those nightmares again because I contracted food poisoning. All I can describe in the dream was that I felt trapped, and everything was all dark and distorted.  Just today, I watched an episode of South Park where the boys sent a whale into space. The end showed the whale trapped and dead on the moon with no way to get back to Earth. After seeing the whale, I finally figured out what my dream was. It was just a state where I could not escape and nothing was going right. I believe the reasons I have these dreams is because my mental and physical state is weak due to my sickness. Anyways I hope to have this kind of dream again so I could be more aware of it.

On a much more optimistic note, my Friday class got cancelled which was my midterm for stats so it is pushed to Monday. That means tomorrow is my last day for the week which I need to rest and kick back.

My stuff + New York

Ordered another shirt for my new look for the year.

I also pimped out my desktop with some stickers

Last but not least…..New York….

That statue will soon be replaced by a statue of ME. I RUN NY. Not.

Man…I really want to go back to New York. The lifestyle there is so different compared to San Jose. I miss taking the subway. I miss walking around Chinatown and around Manhatten. I miss drinking Sake in the tea cafes. I miss my cousins there. Basically….I miss New York. Hopefully this summer, I will be able to go back.

Life…: |

I tried starting my year of 2009 on a good note but so far, it is backfiring on me. My classes are stressing me to the point where my temper is real short. My hardest class this quarter is Statistics and I have it 8 in the morning. My teacher is so strict that she even marks you off if you spell a word wrong. For god sakes, it’s a math class not a damn English class. I understand that it’s college and you need be precise but this process just gets to a certain point where it’s annoying. Just last week, on my quiz, I spelled one damn word wrong and I got half credit on the problem. The points for our quizzes are very minimal so every point matters. It’s just making my blood boil and my day not so good.  Not only that but I realize I keep getting screwed by women. I always get my hopes up and think that it’s going to work out but in the end, the girl says, “oh i see you as just a friend” or “I’m not really looking for a committed relationship”. Not that I’m desperate for a relationship but I have just been thinking throughout my life on how I keep getting screwed. Is it because I’m not being assertive enough? Is it because I am scared to make changes? Is it because something is holding me back? Is it because of my personality? I cannot comprehend why I keep getting screwed. Whatever,  Right now, I’m abstaining from women unless I feel some sort of intimate connection.

Seeing as how I’m being pathetic, I feel like I need to change my personality and my appearance….which brings me on to some of my pictures!  Here are some stuff I have gotten this year:

Big sale. Only got this for 30 dollars!

Even though this shirt was 40 dollars, It  looks damn good. Also, they gave me free stickers! Thank you Andrew for forcing me to get it.

ES shoes only for $49.50.

More of my stuff will be soon to come! Peace guys

JGhaz

The one thing man always dreams of and strives for is none other than…the pink taco!

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